the lesson's learned... and i got burned

Trying to just be his friend, is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do in life. Knowing that he's right there, caring for me as just a friend, looking at my as just a friend, when i see him as soo much more. I keep telling myself to stop and just deal with the pain because its the best that im ever going to get, and id rather not lose him as a friend either. Or would that be easier for me?

I dont know. all i know is that every word spoken to me now, just breaks my heart.