You opened my eyes.

I didn't think it could have been that easy to get out of that hell hole but you, you helped me through it all. You were there when I cried, you were their when I was scared. You told me everything was going to be ok, and that you would do your best to keep you safe, and thats all I needed.

I am a victim of partner assault

So i got a call yesterday stating that i was a victim of partner assault. It feels weird calling myself that. Yes i went through alot with justin, and it wasn't the best relationship ever, but I don't want to be categorized as such. Yes I was hit, beaten, and was hit with alot of hateful words, but I think I got it better than most of the people that are a victim of partner assault.
Anyway, These past few days have been traumatizing. If i can describe it it was defiantly equivalent to hell, or maybe even worst. Seeing someone you cared about for so long, just loosing it in front of your eyes. Yes he got what he deserved, but its hard to just let go all of the emotions that you both shared, whether it was the past or not.

I am moving on with my life. I am finding something new. The past will never be erased, but I know that I'm stronger than ever.

I'm running this race to fast

So its as if im running this course just a little bit faster than you are, which is ironic in a sense because your are the athletic one. But forget that thats going off topic. What i mean to say, is i guess im pushing for the finish line to get there, and your just taking your sweet time enjoying the scenery. Im just going to lay it all out there, i dont want to wait for prom, i want to be your girlfriend now. There i said it, however i highly doubt your going to read this. This is so frusterating I know what i want and i cant get it. Your hesitant and im pushy. ill go to prom with you but im scared that someone will get in the way while i wait.

This time im doing it right

OK, its been official i know i like you, I blush when your around. I get nervous now when i talk to you, like i never had before. But if this does happen i want to make it right. I'm finally doing whatever i can to get this monster out of my life. I really wanted this to work out with no fuck ups so i did the following:
changed my number
blocked him on my house phone
referred him to the police

right now thats all i can do. and i hope that is enough to be with you