The stresses of a debutante {Part 1}

So my party is 7 months away,
Your probably wondering why I'm planning my party in such an advance. It's because a debut is a BIG thing in the Philippine culture. I've been trying to look for a venue that I'll be able to have for my party but all these big hotels that I've been booking have been turning me down. The Chateau Laurier, Lord Elgin... arg! It's so frustrating. I'm going to have to settle for a smaller venue something not as nice as those hotels unfortunately, just because I need to get to the person who shall be making my invitations for that night and of course, I'll need to give her a place or it will not work out so well. I was thinking of the hall that the INS society used for their Christmas Party. Its not as nice, but its big enough to fit all the people i want to invite. It's nice that it has two floors as well, so for all my closest friends will be with me at the bottom and the rest of my friends and family will be upstairs and still be able to enjoy the party.
I'll be calling them tomorrow so that I can book a date =D.
I'll keep in touch!
Can't wait until my party!

*.Confessions of 2008.*

In '08 I...

[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[x] made out in a car
[x] kissed in the snow
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] had my heart broken
[x] broke someone else's heart
[x] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[ ] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[x] got a promotion
[x] got a pay raise
[x] changed jobs
[ ] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ] got straight A's
[x] met a teacher who I became friends with
[x] met a teacher who I really hate
[x] found the subject I love
[ ] failed a class
[x] cut class
[x] skipped school
[ ] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was happy with
[x] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile 2000 times
[x] double dipped
[x] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] went to camp
[x] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[x] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign province
[x] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[x] went on a diet
[x] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[x] came close to losing my life
[x] someone close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] drank alcohol underage
[x] got drunk
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[x] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[ ] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[x] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[x] smoked
[x] got wasted
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] made a snowman
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] went snowboarding
[x] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someone’s hand that you care about
[x] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend...
[x] went on vacation
[x] went on vacation with a friend
[ ] driven a car
[x] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[ ] got in a car accident
[x] saw someone get in a car accident
[x] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ]sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall

First of all, I started off 2008 with a new years resolution that I didn't do. My resolution was to grab the life that I truly deserve, and that was to be without you. Unfortunately, I was so scared and weak to do anything. I should have listened, but I didn't.

Celine, this one is for you baby girl! I miss you so friggen much, there isn't a day in this world that goes by, that I don't think about you. I regret not phoning you back during the summer holidays when you asked me to hang out, catch up on the old times and talk about "them boys". I miss the days when we would have to go to the park to chill just because we didn't want to be at my house where my annoying parentals would be. Celine, I love and miss you everyday, and I'll live my life keeping you alive in my heart forever&always! Keep smiling twin sister!

This one goes out to my two best friends who stood by me even when I pushed them back so many times. Honestly, I don't know what I would do without you! I regret ever mistreating you and never taking your advice to go the right way in life. I'll always stand by you, like you stood by me. I love you Chloe-Baloney & Smurph-a-ella!

This one is for the one who captured my heart, and kept reminding me to kept my head up high.
If it wasn't for the alcohol that I consumed that night, I don't think I would have confessed that I liked you. I'm glad that I did or else I wouldn't be as happy as I am today. You show me the beautiful person who is hiding inside of me. I love you, Nathan and seeing that I'll be with you during the New Year already lets me know that it will be so much better than the last.

This one is for the family who had to put up with me. I'm sorry for putting you guys though what I did. I regretted ever leaving the house, when I did I thought about you guys everyday I was away. I'm sorry for not being the daughter that you made me to be. I thought he would have givin' me the things that I truly wanted in life, but you know what. I'm still young for that. I'm sorry, you were right and I was wrong, I'll never go back against your word ever again. I'm just glad that you like the current boy in my life, it takes a lot of stress off my shoulders for sure =D.

Overall, I had a good year, with my ups and my downs. I've learned to never run away from your fears, because they will always just keep chasing you.
My new years resolution is to build up my self esteem that was lost during the year of 2007.

I found you...

"We were given two hands to hold, two eyes to see, two legs to walk, two ears to listen. But why just one heart, The other one was given to someone else to find."

&& i think i found my heart in you...

A letter to my PrinceCharming

ҳهҳه -P н є в є J α n є - ҳهҳه
will you play the role as prince charming?

Haller (L)s PJ Ti amo
anyday

Haller (L)s PJ Ti amo
would you be my princess?

ҳهҳه -P н є в є J α n є - ҳهҳه
in a heartbeat

PrinceCharming,

To you on this Christmas season, I would like to give you something better that can't be packaged or bowed. Something, so little and delicate that cannot be played with. I would like to give you my heart, meaning all of me.

When I'm with you, its so magical and unreal, its like a wish waiting to be granted, and its being granted right before my eyes. You give me something better than what a child would feel on that Christmas morning, when they're opening their special gifts underneath the tree.

I am ready to start a NewYear with you, forgetting all the worries and fears that I had.

I'm sitting here waiting,
Tears running down my face.
Have you forgotten about me again?
My heart is collapsing,
I can feel it start to lose its beat.

Multiple Persons Inside Of Me

I feel my emotions fighting themselves.
It's they all have different masks and I don't know which one to wear
One second ill be happy
and another ill be angry and sad.
I just hate this feeling.
I hate not knowing who i want to be
not being able to control my emotions

I don't know what made this start up again
I'm confused as shit,
or is it loneliness I'm feeling?

Lessons for the guys

Stop looking at me like I'm some item on the shelf.
Stop striping me naked with your eyes, I'm not stupid
I hate it when guys just make it so obvious when they're checking a girl out
Seriously, can't you tone it down.
Its not appealing.
If you think your going to get a girl like that think again.
Stop being shallow, look deep into a girls heart.