My dearest friend.

I felt like I was a lost little girl, until you returned to me.

I remember how you would make me laugh, with all the weird things you do.
I remember how you would always help me up when I fell.
I remember when you would clean me up when I scraped my knees.
I remember when you held me in your arms until my tears dried up.

You were always the strong shoulder to cry on, and was always there for me when I needed you.
You were always the friend who stood by my side, through thick and thin.
You always stood up for me when I felt small.
You were always there to stand behind me when I was scared.
You were the one who carried me when I was weak.

I'm so glad that your back. My life seems complete.
I love you for that.

If I needed you, Where would I find you?

If I went looking for you,
Where would I find you?

If I screamed out your name,

Would you hear me?

If I cried,

Would you wipe the tears?

If I needed you,

Would you be there for me?

If I was lonely,
Would you hold me?

If I was broken,

Would you fix me?

Theres this feeling of need, inside of me that I just can't explain. I don't know if its because I miss you, or the lack of communication between us. I'm not used to this. I was used to him, always calling me at the end of the day seeing how my day was, and I liked it. It's different I know just because your so far away and your always so busy, but what if I needed you? Where would I find you, how could I reach you?

Sometimes, I just want to talk to you, and no one else. It's kind of like your the only one who can understand my point of view, or can tell me that the person that I am, is much greater than I believe to be. Your the one that I love, and sometimes, your the only one I want to talk to.

Getting out of your comfort zone

I'm here in a different enviroment then i'm used to.
I'm used to my store, with everything in its place and where everything is.
But here, it looks the same.
But it doesn't feel the same.

I'll wear this white ribbon to remember... and be aware

Tomorrow is the National Day of Rememberance & Action on Violence Against Woman. On that day in 1989, 14 young women at l'École Polytechnique de Montréal died, because they were women. He seperated the class, men on one side, women on the other. Asked the men to step outside, and then shot each and everyone of the women in the class. Its not just violence as in shooting either, its abuse, wheater its verbally or physically we have to recognize and not repeat. Its also the song lyrics that some people have and what they say and call us women. Do we really like to be called this from our day to day lives? Why is it right for them to have it in their lyrics?

I say this from a person of experience who came out of a horrible relationship where I had to be careful of what I say or do. I would get hit constantly just because I wasn't strong enough, or just because I didn't listen to his authority. The man isn't more powerful than the woman in the relationship, there should be equality in the relationship and where two people can talk like civilized people.

To my spare buddies.... Max & Melissa

What am i to do without you two?

honestly
i would be just be sitting here just typing away like a loner

to max. always there.
when its running to produce for some hummus :) or cheese?
haha, or just running around the halls just frolicking
from showing me today's sunshine girls to watching videos on your mp3
lol... mahn laughs are non stop with you!

to melissa. shopping buddy!
known you since kindergarden
went different ways and now your my fav shopping buddy on spare!
we still have to get our nails done!
remember that time when you showed us your tan line?
woow... good times....
:)

Build-a-Bearing

well, i don't really know what to write since i have like less than 10 mins to write it
i got an email from build-a-bear and i want to make another one to add to my collection
hello-kitty, dressed up as tinkerbell
cinderbear
merbear
bellbear
jasbear
snowbear
hannah montana bear
in love with zac efron bear
.... and more that i might have just cant think of them

my bear family is lonely
and i just found out that my bear family is all girls...
i think i need to add a male into the family...
yes... i think so too

I'm in love with him. Deal with it.

I don't understand why you're acting like a child.
Please honestly stop trying to ruin my life.
I love him, and I don't want to lose him.
Please, seriously.
You know how happy I am with him.
Stop telling him lies that aren't true
Just stop messaging him period.
I don't understand why your doing this.
Is it just to make me unhappy.
To be alone in this world,
because you know that's what I'm afraid of?
Or are you trying to get him to leave me,
so I could be the vulnerable little girl you used to torment?
Well its not like that, I believe that what I have with him is love,
though its not marked yet.
I also, believe that if this is love, that love can push down walls,
and beat down anything that comes between it.